1. I had to breast feed my daughter in the church "nursing room" today with 2 other ladies. When I got there the room was full, so one mother who was done nursing, but still visiting with the other mothers had to leave, making me feel like a total bother. The whole time my blanket was falling off of my shoulder. I started sweating and worrying about what everyone was seeing. Then the baby decided she didn't want to eat and made me look like I totally didn't know what I was doing.
2. I was trying to talk to a group of adults about Sunday school this morning and they all ignored me. I wasn't sure if they couldn't see me because I'm so much shorter than all of them, or if they just don't like me because well, I'm me.
3. I taught the Bible lesson to the kindergarten through 3rd grade classes at church today and I totally lost my place and forgot my lines...TWICE!!!! I even did the dreaded announce to everyone that I lost my place thing. Aahhahhh! I also had to speak after Kyle and everybody knows how great Kyle is at speaking in front of kids and adults for that matter. I felt so stupid!
All of those insecurities go away the day you turn 30. You will know that you are a spokeswoman among the best, and you will stand tall in any crowd. You already do, but at that moment, you will know it for yourself. I promise.
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